Love Me as I Die (NC17) (Revised)

Christina-m · **Christina-m**

Hi everyone. I originally posted this fan fiction on Thursday March 13, 2008 at 12:53 pm. The final chapter of this fan fiction was posted on Monday May 05, 2008 at 2:54 pm. Since then I still receive many PM’s from people who love the story. Every one of these people have told me that they read the whole thing straight through. According to most of them it takes about four hours to read from beginning to end. When I ask how someone can read a fan fiction for so long they told me because they “just couldn’t stop”. In 2008 Love Me As I Die won three FFA’s (Fan Fiction Awards) on tatu.us. It won Best Fic of This Year, Best Emotive, and Best Finale. I really have fun writing and like I said many times; if I didn’t like being creativeness then I would not work in film. So thank you to all of the people who have kept this fan fiction alive by bumping it and showing it to your friends.

In January of 2009 there was a big forum crash on the tatu.us website. This caused a lot of the site’s fan fictions to have glitches. Every time there was a punctuation mark a little square box replaced it. This glitch was very annoying and I was afraid that future readers might not want to read my fan faction because of the problem. So for a while now I have wanted to remove the boxes and reformat the paragraphs in Love Me As I Die mainly because this is my most popular story on the forums. Reformatting the paragraphs took a great deal of time for me and I knew I still had to do the main part of removing all the glitch boxes But to do it all myself would have been very hard.

So for that I would really like to thank Blackstormdragon for removing the glitch boxes for chapters 1 through 7 as well as chapters 22 through 42. You have helped me very much. So again thank you very much.

For the future readers; I hope you enjoy this fan fiction. I still get excited when I get a pm from someone new who has read it so you are welcome to send me a PM if you have any criticism or praise. I take both well. Critiques help me write better next time so don’t worry. If you think it sucks you can tall me.

~Christina-M

Chapter 1

Yulia squirmed as a fit of childlike giggles escaped her small frame. “Who’s winning?” The redhead asked as she straddled Yulia to the floor. Yulia still had the Nintendo remote in her hand.

“I am” Yulia giggled. Though Lena was all over her, Yulia was still somehow winning the game. “I did not want to have to do this but I have no choice” Lena joked as she drummed her thin fingers up and down Yulia’s extremely sensitive sides. “No, NO, NO Please not there” Yulia laughed dropping the controller on the floor.

“Oh is someone giving in?” Lena flirted knowing just the right way to make Yulia loose all control.

“Hahaha ahaha no I can’t stand it” Yulia screamed with laughter. Just then the James Bond theme song came on as blood dripped down over the TV screen.

“I won yes!” Lena exclaimed. “So who won the game Yulia?” Lena asked sarcastically still running her hands under Yulia’s shirt.

“Oh God, you, you, please I can’t breathe” Yulia laughed in a thick Russian accent.

“Yeah that’s right ME” Lena said releasing the girl. Yulia’s chest rose up and down several times taking in much needed oxygen.

“You cheater” Yulia pouted.

“What did you say?” Lena asked flexing her fingers.

“You are. It’s not my fault you suck. The idea is to shoot me not yourself or the toilets and hiding in vents is not a good idea either.” Yulia said pressing the pause button on the game.

“So I won the bet, it’s time for what I want.” Lena said happily.

“No fair, I would have won if you didn’t attack me.” Yulia said. Lena leaned in to kiss Yulia’s forehead. Yulia moved, with a pout on her face, so Lena’s kiss missed her.

“Hey baby, I’m sorry, look if it bothers you that bad we can have a rematch” Lena said.

Yulia looked at Lena sternly and lunged at Lena’s midsection causing the redhead to fall backwards landing on the floor. Yulia climbed on top of her and started tickling her crazily. Lena wiggled under Yulia as she laughed hard into the smaller girl’s neck. “What are you doing” Lena laughed.

“Having a rematch” Yulia said matter-of-factly.
“No that is not what I meant” Lena laughed.

“I’ll stop if you admit to being wrong and claiming me as the winner” Yulia said playfully.

“Ok, ok.” Lena begged as she head flew back and forth in an attempt to escape the sensation of Yulia’s touch.

“Say it” Yulia teased.

“You win, you win, YOU WIN” Lena screeched.

“And what do I win?” Yulia played. “ANYTHING” Lena screamed. Yulia stopped and stood up.

“Good I want my massage now” Yulia said and walked proudly out of the living room into the bedroom.

Lena lied there for a few seconds before following her girlfriend into the bedroom. “Well I massage you on one condition” Lena said looking at the spiky haired girl sprawled out on the bed.

“I’ll see, what is this condition?” Yulia asked sarcastically.

“You are to be completely naked.”

“What’s the catch?” Yulia asked.

“Nothing but why should you have all the fun? I want to look at your cute ass while I rub you” Lena giggled.

“My cute ass does not want any pinching this time” Yulia said as she ripped her shirt off. Yulia removed her pants and underwear as well as bra and went back on the bed.

“Aw but it is so cute and would be a sin not to pinch it” Lena laughed as she climbed on top of Yulia.

“Ooff” Yulia said as Lena sat down on Yulia’s butt.

“Oof? I’m not that heavy” Lena said playfully teasing the smaller girl’s butt by slightly pinching it.

“NO” Yulia giggled. Lena placed her hands on Yulia’s shoulders and began massaging her girlfriend.

“Oh god I love you” Yulia moaned.

Yulia hated being touched by people. She was not really a touchy feely person. Lena was the only one who could do it the ‘right’ way. “Am I going too hard baby” Lena asked.

“Mmm” was all that came out of Yulia’s body.

Lena smiled. “Yulia you are all tensed you should not have to wait for me to do this for you.” Lena said.

“But you love me” Yulia whined.

“Yes babe that’s why I want you to be comfortable even when I am not here.” Lena said.

“I’m fine, I’ve just been in a lot of stress since your mom started working days instead of nights” Yulia said.

“I know Yul, I miss coming over here every night too, but well you know” Lena said as she ran her fingers down Yulia’s spine causing her to shiver. “Sorry babe” Lena said when she felt Yulia shiver under her.

“It’s ok” Yulia replied.

“It’s just, well I’m her only daughter and she really wants to be a grandma someday and-“Lena started but was cut off by Yulia laughing. “Oh baby I’m sorry. Should I press harder?” Lena asked removing her hands from Yulia’s back.

“No you where fine don’t stop” Yulia said. “I was just going to say to tell her I’m sorry but at the rate she’s keeping us apart we’ll never be able to adopt.” Yulia joked.

Lena smirked. “Yulia how is it you can turn something serious into something funny all the time?” Lena questioned.

“I’m gifted” Yulia said sweetly.

“You are?” Lena asked.

“Oh yeah” Yulia said seductively.

“Well maybe you should show me how gifted you are then” Lena said in the same tone.

Yulia rolled over knocking Lena off balance landing on the other side of the bed. She quickly pinned the redhead down and hungrily kissed her soft lips. Now it was Lena’s turn to moan. Yulia smiled against Lena’s lips. Just then Yulia’s mother opened the door.

“Yulia Volkova! What the hell are you doing?” She yelled. Yulia rolled off of Lena and covered her chest with a pillow.

“Don’t mom, please” Yulia said through girded teeth.

“I said no sex. From now on I want this door open when you have girls in your room” Larissa yelled.

“Lena is the only girl who goes in my room mamma. I am seventeen. I am in love. We need to kiss sometimes.” Yulia defended.

“Yulia you are naked for Christ sakes. Kissing is fine but it looks like some kinda orgy party in here” Larissa continued.

“It is not like I’ll accidentally get pregnant” Yulia yelled as her face turned a deep red.

“And I just washed the sheets. God I hope you two didn’t stain them already.” Yulia’s mom ranted.

“Maybe I should go” Lena said.

“No” Yulia yelled.

“I’ll come over after school tomorrow” Lena said.

“But you can’t tomorrow is not a half day. Your mom will be home when school is over” Yulia cried.

“Yulia, really it’s ok.” Lena said as she climbed out of the bed. “Sorry Miss Volkova” Lena said as she left the room.
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Love Me A I Die (Revised version)
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YunaVolkova · **YunaVolkova**

more!! grr, yulia's mom interupted a good scene. i can't wait for more.
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You go on begging. Like this thing gives a damn what we want.The whole world is out to get us. I can berily keep myself alive.Let alone some kid!To the Fal'cei humans are tools. I'm not going to die for one of them.

ZombieRocket · **ZombieRocket**

Awwh. The first part was so cute Grin

Post more soon yeah?

thatgirlkassie · **thatgirlkassie**

great start

, I say post as often as you can Grin

Mrs. Volkova · **Mrs. Volkova**

awesome start! Grin

Please post as often as you can. The title by itself has me extremely interested! Read

paintedfrog · **paintedfrog**

aww they are cute together, i hope that will last...

great start
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It's not lying if they make you lie

You dont know. You can never be sure. But you take the plunge anyway. Sure if for people who dont love enough.

volkyangel · **volkyangel**

VERY hot start,do continue will ya? Grin

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theone · **theone**

Christina-m · **Christina-m**

Chapter 2

“Out” Yulia yelled as she threw the pillow at her mother. Yulia’s mother looked at her angered daughter. “OUT” she repeated.

“Yulia, baby.”

“OUT. God I am so embarrassed. In front of my girlfriend mom” Yulia cried.

“Yulia” Larissa walked further into Yulia’s room and shut the door. “Baby I’m only trying to protect you. I mean what did you expect me to do? Your door is shut and you are making out with her naked on the bed.”

“I would have expected you to at least knock” Yulia cried. “I never get to see her. I have needs mom, ones that only she can fulfill. I can’t see her at school because we are on complete opposite sides of the campus and I can’t see her after school because if Lena’s mother knew she is with me she’d make sure I’d never see her again. I may not be here much longer. I need her with me. Now please leave me alone. I never want to talk to you again” Yulia cried. Larissa left the room and Yulia collapsed into her pillow.

“Lena” Yulia’s mom called out the front door. Lena was slowly walking down the block, but was too far down to hear her. “Lena” she called louder. Lena turned around. “Can I talk to you a second?” Larissa yelled. Lena ran back to Yulia’s house.

“Yes Miss Volkova. Is Yulia ok?”

“Oh she will be fine. Look I am sorry for overreacting like that. I know you would never do anything to hurt her but I still worry. She is very upset with me. She really loves you and I understand how this problem with not being able to see you is hurting her. I think you should go up and be with her at least until school ends” Yulia’s mom said with a wink.

“Yeah my mom did not know today was a half day and she does not get home until three. Can I stay until then?” Lena asked.

“Sure” Larissa replied. Lena happily ran back into the house. She slowly opened Yulia’s door and snuck in as Yulia cried into her pillow. Yulia did not even notice that Lena was in the room. Lena shut the door quietly and watched her lover as she cried. Lena slowly and quietly leaned over the bed and crawled in it hugging Yulia tightly. Yulia looked at Lena and snuggled close in her arms.

“Aw don’t cry” Lena soothed.

“I am so sorry Lena, I feel awful. My mom does not think before she speaks sometime” Yulia cried.

“Oh so it runs in the family?” Lena joked. Yulia smiled a bit but continued to cry covering her face with her hands.

“No baby it’s ok, she was just shocked to see us like that. I mean you are naked, Yul. It did look like an orgy” Lena giggled.

“Lena, are you trying to make my face hotter?” Yulia giggled breaking free of Lena and grabbing her clothes.

“Not possible” Lena flirted.

“Lena, stop it” Yulia giggled turning a deeper shade of red.

“Aw baby I’m sorry for making you uncomfortable but god you are so hot when you get like this.” Lena said helping Yulia dress herself.

“Though I much rather be taking your clothes off, I guess I could help.” Lena joked as she pulled the shirt over Yulia’s head.

Yulia looked at Lena. Lena kissed Yulia’s forehead which made Yulia start to cry again. “Yulia” Lena soothed hugging her girlfriend. “What is really bothering you?” She asked. Lena always seemed to be able to tell when something more than what Yulia claimed was bothering her.

“Come with me tomorrow, skip school. I need you to be there with me.” Yulia cried.

“Yulia you will be fine, it’s just a check up” Lena said.

“It’s not, not if my blood count is low again. I can’t go through that again; I was in so much pain Lena, you can’t imagine.” Yulia cried.

“You will be fine, trust me. No matter what I will be here for you; ok?” Lena encouraged.

“Come on, wanna play golden eye?” Lena asked happily.

“No cheating?” Yulia asked.

“No cheating, but I can’t guarantee no flirting” Lena joked.

“I’ll show you no flirting” Yulia said. She picked the pillow off the floor and threw it at an unsuspecting Lena.

“Oh you’re dead Volkova” Lena said, as she chased Yulia into the hallway that leads to the living room.

“Run, run as fast as you can, you can’t catch me-“Yulia started to sing.

“You’re the spiky midget man” Lena finished finally catching up and wrapping her arms around Yulia’s waist.

“Ah let me go. You are squishing me” Yulia squealed. Lena kissed Yulia all over her face and neck in a quick motion causing Yulia to giggle. “Ah I’m all wet” Yulia laughed.

“Oh you are?” Lena asked seductively.

“Yes. And it aint just my face.” Yulia joked

“Oh really maybe you should have that checked when you go to the doctor. I notice you get those symptoms a lot” Lena kidded.

The girls where so into themselves, that they did not realize Yulia’s mother listening in amusement from the couch. “Well Doctor Katina, maybe it is you causing my problems” Yulia joked back.

“Well that could be a problem. I should have a look” Lena said as she started unzipping Yulia’s pants while still holding Yulia in a bear hug.

“No” Yulia laughed. Larissa decided she’d heard enough and stood up to leave the room. Just then she heard a thud followed by laughing as Lena and Yulia fell down half in the hall and half in the living room.

From where Yulia had landed she could see her mother watching them. Lena along with Yulia’s lower body was still in the hall so she had no idea. Lena pulled Yulia’s pants off as Yulia stared speechlessly at her mother. “Lena no” Yulia managed to say shyly.

Lena let go of Yulia noticing the change in her tone of voice. Yulia crawled out of the hall a bit more while trying to put her pants back on, which was hard with her being on the floor. “You ok?” Lena asked breathlessly.

“Yeah” Yulia said turning her head back smiling. Yulia looked back into the living room and started to crawl faster. “I’m first player” She yelled.

“Oh no you’re not” Lena laughed grabbing Yulia’s ankles pulling her back.

“Oh yes I am” Yulia said fighting to move forward. Yulia’s mom smiled watching the girls flirt. Most parents would be outraged at witnessing such behavior, but she was so happy to see Yulia smile finally after the hard life the seventeen year old had gone through. Yulia broke free and dashed towards the first control. Lena followed.

“I’m trying to watch this show, Yulia” Yulia’s mom finally said breaking her silence. Lena looked up at the couch in shock.

“Oh Miss Volkova, I um, we um, where just, um” Lena stuttered.

“Oh mom just one game?” Yulia begged ignoring her girlfriend’s rambling.

“No Yulia I am watching this. Can it wait ten minutes?” Yulia’s mom asked.

“Fine” Yulia pouted.

“What did I say about that face?” Yulia’s mother said sternly.

“What face” Yulia asked knowing full well what her mother was referring to.

“That pouting one. You keep doing it your face will be stuck that way.” Yulia’s mom said.

Yulia waited nervously in the waiting room. It was nine in the morning and the doctor’s office was packed. “I wish Lena was here” Yulia mumbled.

“She has school Yulia.” Larissa started to say when the door to the back rooms opened. “Volkova” The nurse said. Yulia stood up and followed the nurse into the back.

“Do you want me to come” Her mother asked.

“No, I’m fine” Yulia said sadly. The nurse took Yulia’s vitals as well as her height and weight and then left Yulia alone in the room. Yulia sat on the table and waited for what seemed like forever until the door opened again.

“Miss Volkova?” it was the nurse again.

“Yes” Yulia said looking up at the tall dark haired nurse.

“Miss Volkova, she insisted she had to come back to see you” The nurse said as someone wrapped in a pink bubble jacket entered the room. The nurse shut the door behind the visitor.

“Lena” Yulia squealed happily, while she jumped off the table. Yulia kissed Lena tenderly on the lips. “I thought you weren’t going to show up” Yulia said hugging her girlfriend tightly.

“Yulia I need to take my coat off” Lena laughed. Lena removed her jacket and hat and sat down on the table with Yulia. “Sorry baby, my mom insisted on driving me today so I had to wait a while and then sneak out and walk here. God it is freezing out there” Lena apologized.

“Aw baby, come here. Why didn’t you call me? You could catch a cold.” Yulia said compassionately hugging Lena tightly while rubbing her back as if trying to warm her up.

“Yulia why aren’t you like this around other people?” Lena asked kissing Yulia’s lips.

“Like what?” Yulia asked already knowing the answer.

Yulia was always getting into fights and was a smart ass to teachers at school. She wasn’t really a fighter, but she was always teased. Weather it was from the popular girls who would lock her out of the bathroom, insisting she use the boys one or the jocks making bets that they could turn her straight if she gave them a chance. And the one thing that really drove Yulia off the wall was when they would pick on Lena.

“Yulia leave it. It is not a big deal. I don’t care what they say” Lena would insist. Yulia would always say “It is a big deal” because in Yulia’s eyes Lena was perfect and could do no wrong. She hated how in middle school kids use to pick on Lena for being too shy or having red hair or hanging around a *dyke*. Lena was nice to everyone and it killed Yulia when bullies would try to pull her down. Yulia was often suspended for fighting on Lena’s behalf. In sixth grade she managed to break a kid’s nose because he said that Lena looked like she was hit with the ugly stick. Yulia was beside herself mainly because Lena was the image of perfection to Yulia.

Lena and Yulia had been friends since middle school but only fell in love in eighth grade. Now that both where seniors in high school their relationship had grown greatly. Yulia met Lena when she moved from Russia in the middle of sixth grade. Yulia was very sick as a child and her mother was advised to have her treated in America, for the doctors in America where more advanced in treatment for the rare illness. Yulia had been in remission of her illness since eighth grade but recently she had been getting severe muscle pains which are a symptom of it. Lena was born in Russia but moved to America at a young age so she did not really have an accent. That was another reason Yulia was teased in school. Yulia had a strong accent when she spoke English although she had been speaking English since she was a child; the accent was still very strong. Lena said it made Yulia sound sexier when she talked. Sometimes when they did homework together, Lena would beg Yulia to read it to her just to hear her talk.

“Like I don’t know” nice maybe Lena joked looking deep into the crystal eyes before her.

“Cause I like you” Yulia smirked. Lena ran her fingers through Yulia’s hair as Yulia leaned back into her. “Don’t mess up my spikes” Yulia said jokingly stern.

“Never, they make you so cute” Lena said kissing the top of Yulia’s head.
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thatgirlkassie · **thatgirlkassie**

awww, i hope Yulia is ok......great update, cant wait for more

tATuROCKSxxx · **tATuROCKSxxx**

Awww...So cute!
Great story

Please keep going

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''Just t.A.T.u. Nothing.'' - Yulia Volkova
''Tears are your best friends. When everyone else leave you,they come...''

volkyangel · **volkyangel**

yeah it's tooooo cute to be true.awsome story dude,continue! Grin

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YunaVolkova · **YunaVolkova**

aww this chapter was cute. i love the flirting. yulia's mom is just worried about yulia and it is understandable w/ the illness yulia has. i love how lena is the only one that yulia acts sweet and vunerable to.i can't wait for more. and of course lena's mom is the evil one.
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You go on begging. Like this thing gives a damn what we want.The whole world is out to get us. I can berily keep myself alive.Let alone some kid!To the Fal'cei humans are tools. I'm not going to die for one of them.

paintedfrog · **paintedfrog**

so thats where the title comes from...anyway cute chapter, and yulia's mom seems a lot nicer in this one i guess she was just worried before, but at least she seen her mistake and got lena back.

great update
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It's not lying if they make you lie

You dont know. You can never be sure. But you take the plunge anyway. Sure if for people who dont love enough.

ZombieRocket · **ZombieRocket**

awwwwwww. So cute. Keep it coming Grin

InSaIn4tATu · **InSaIn4tATu**

aww aint they so cute and to have yulia naked and all over ya Devil

but typical mothers always stuffing it up hehe ,still a excllent update look forward for more

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Wish you were here .

tuvey · **tuvey**

Loving the story, love the interaction between Yulia and Lena. Really cute.
Can�t wait for the next update~

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Christina-m · **Christina-m**

Chapter 3

A few minutes later the doctor came in and Lena was asked to leave the room. Almost an hour went by when Yulia ran out of the office. The doctor was right behind her. “Miss Volkova, can I speak with you for a moment in my office?” the doctor asked Yulia’s mom. She followed him back as Lena went out the front door into the freezing air after Yulia.

“Yulia?” Lena called out. Yulia was sitting on a bench in the park across the street. Lena ran across the street zippering her jacket as she ran “Yulia?” Lena asked out of breath as she took a seat next to Yulia.

“No” Yulia yelled as she stood up and ran inside the park. Lena took off after her.

“Yulia, baby, wait” Lena yelled as the cold air filled her lungs. Yulia ran up a small hill and into the park bathrooms. Lena made it a few seconds later. When she made it to the bathroom she noticed that all of the stall doors where open except for the handicap one. “Yulia baby, are you Ok?” Lena asked walking up to the door. She heard nothing. “Yulia please. What happened?” Lena asked already figuring out the answer. Lena heard a light whimper come from the stall and her heart broke. Lena crawled under the stall and looked up to see Yulia curled up in a ball on the floor. Lena unlocked the stall door and crawled over to sit on the floor next to Yulia. Lena lifted Yulia’s head to place it on her lap. Lena ran her fingers through Yulia’s hair in an attempt to sooth the girl’s crying.

“Why? Lena, why?” Yulia yelled as tears poured from her eyes into Len’s jeans.

“What did he say baby?” Lena asked trying to stop her own tears from forming.

“They can’t fix me this time, it is too far gone.” Yulia cried.

“Is that what he said?” Lena asked.

“He said first comes the muscle pains, then I won’t be able to walk or even feed myself, then I might loose my sight or hearing and eventually die” Yulia cried.

“No Yulia, you just need a second opinion” Lena cried now unable to hold her emotions back.

“He was my second opinion” Yulia cried harder into Lena, her body starting to shake.

“But all that stuff baby, it will take a long time for all that to happen, it is not going to happen all at once.” Lena tried to calm Yulia down but it was impossible because at this point she could not even calm herself down. Lena stopped trying and hugged Yulia tighter, now lying on the floor with her. The two girls cried into each other for a good half hour until they heard the bathroom door swing open.

“Yulia baby” Yulia’s mother said out of breath, obviously from running. She dropped to the floor to hug her daughter. Her cheeks where also stained with tears. “Aw girls, it will be ok, come on lets go home” Larissa said helping the two of them stand up. While in the car Lena held Yulia in the back seat as Larissa drove. Both where still crying, afraid to let go of the other. “Lena I think I should call your mom, tell her where you are and what happened. I’m sure she’ll understand when she hears why. I’ll see if I can get her to let you spend the night being that it is a Friday.” Larissa said. Lena nodded.

“-and Yulia is really scared right now and she needs Lena to help her through this. I understand you don’t approve of their behaviors towards each other but, you can not deny that they are also very close friends. She just needs her friend with her at this hard time” Larissa said into the phone. “Oh Yes the door will be open all night trust me. Yes I understand. Yes... No, I would never let that happen. Of course, I’ll tell her, thank you again bye, bye” Larissa hung up the phone and looked at the four eyes starring up at her in anticipation. “You can stay this weekend and after school during the week, but no sex or making out and all homework must be done first” Larissa said with a smirk. Lena smiled and kissed Yulia’s trembling lips.

“I’m right here, Baby” Lena whispered.

“Lena” Yulia whispered as they lied in Yulia’s queen sized bed that night.

“Yeah babe” Lena mumbled.

“I love you” Yulia whispered.

“I love you too my Yulia” Lena mumbled, clearly tired, the day had really warn her out.

“Lena?” Yulia whispered.

“Yulia?” Lena mimicked.

“Lena, will you love me if at some point I can’t talk?" Yulia whispered. Lena wrapped her arms around Yulia’s thin frame and looked straight into her eyes.

“I will love you always, even if I have to clean your bed pan” Lena joked.

“EW, Lena gross, don’t talk like that” Yulia said smiling a bit. “I’m serious Lena” Yulia whined.

“Me too. I love you so much this feeling would never go away from something so stupid. I will take care of you, stop worrying and go to sleep.” Lena said shutting her eyes.

“Lena” Yulia whispered a few minutes later.

“Yes Yul?” Lena mumbled.

“Will you love me if I turn into a vegetable?” Yulia asked. Although Lena knew what Yulia meant, she could not help but smile at how funny the question sounded.

“Yulia I would love you even if you turned into a tomato” Lena said.

“Lena?”

“What Yulia, I told you I will always love you no matter what now go to sleep” Lena said getting annoyed.

“That wasn’t what I was going to ask” Yulia said.

“Then what Yulia?” Lena mumbled.

“You do know that tomatoes are fruits right?” Yulia asked with a smirk. Lena opened her eyes and smiled.

“Oh shut up” Lena laughed. She kissed Yulia tenderly before shutting her eyes and drifting into a peaceful sleep.

Lena’s eyes shot open when she heard Yulia cry out. “Oh god” Yulia cried as her body twisted into a painful position.

“Yulia what happened?” Lena asked trying to quiet the girl.

“Oh Lena make it stop hurting! Make it stop” Yulia cried.

“What hurts baby?” Lena asked.

“Oh god, make it stop” Yulia continued.

Yulia hadn’t had such a strong pain since her childhood. Her muscles seemed to all be in spasm. Lena did not know what to do. “What hurts most? You have to tell me so I can fix it” Lena said strongly.

“Oh god, my foot, my foot and my back” Yulia screamed. Lena reached under the covers and grabbed Yulia’s foot. She started massaging it trying to make the muscle relax. Right now the muscle could be seen protruding through Yulia’s skin. Yulia cried out as Lena massaged it. “NO Lena stop oh God it hurts” Yulia cried.

“I have to do this to make it better, trust me” Lena said as she pressed harder on the muscle. Yulia was in so much pain she did not even notice when her mother ran in.

“Yulia, Yulia what happened?” Larissa asked. “Oh baby” She said as she started to massage Yulia’s back.

“NO mom NO stop” Yulia screamed in agony. Larissa stopped and watched in horror as her daughter struggled in pain. Finally Lena managed to stop the muscle spasms in Yulia’s feet and started up her legs. Yulia cried out loudly as Lena tried her hardest to eliminate as much pain as she could.

Five long minutes later Yulia’s body seemed to stop the rest of the spasms on its own. Larissa left to make Yulia some tea as Lena tried to sooth her crying. “I’m right here, Baby” Lena said kissing the girls lips. Soon they both fell back into a deep sleep.

“Shhh it be ok” The dark haired child said as she cradled the redhead in her arms.
“It hurts” The redhead cried as tears stained her freckled face.

“I know. I give him such a dark eye later. He wish to never touch you” The twelve year old said angrily in broken English. The twelve year old squeezed the top of the redhead’s nose.

“OW” She cried in pain.

“I know, I have to make the blood to stop” The twelve year old said sweetly.

“Yulia make it stop hurting” The child begged.

“I fix it” Yulia said. “I right here, I make it stop hurt I promise” She lifted the redhead’s chin so that her face was right over her friends. She carefully placed her lips on Lena’s nose and kissed it gently. “All better?” She asked shyly. Lena could not believe it but she in fact did feel better after Yulia’s kiss.

Lena jumped up out of her sleep. The sun was already shining through the window, casting beautifully on Yulia’s face. Yulia was still sound asleep. Lena removed the covers gently and kissed Yulia’s foot. “I’ll make it better, I promise" She whispered still kissing her girlfriend.

Yulia’s eyes fluttered open as she kicked her foot away. Lena looked up at Yulia who was looking at her like she had three heads. “What are you doing?” Yulia asked sleepily.

“What I can’t kiss my girlfriend?” Lena asked crawling back up the bed towards Yulia’s head.

“On my feet?” Yulia giggled.

“I love every inch of you” Lena said. Yulia smiled and shut her eyes again.

“Well quit it” Yulia mumbled. Lena smiled and Kissed Yulia’s lips.

“Yuck Lena those lips where just on my feet” Yulia said wiping her lips. Lena laughed.

“So what, you don’t wash your feet?” Lena kidded.

“I do but that’s just gross, it’s like eating off the floor. Eww” She mumbled. Lena giggled and stood up.

“Where are you going?” Yulia asked.

“To brush my teeth from the effect from your dirty foot” Lena joked. Yulia looked up and smiled at her.
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Mrs. Volkova · **Mrs. Volkova**

This is absolutely wonderful. I really don't know what to say...I'm speechless. Worship

The flashback of Yulia making Lena's nose feel better made me burst out in tears, it's just so wonderful.

And Yuli's broken English was so cute! Grin

Keep the updates coming, please!

YunaVolkova · **YunaVolkova**

wow this was a sweet chapter. poor yulia though. i loved the flashback. the last line was one of the best. lena is soo caring towards yulia. i can't wait for more.
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theone · **theone**

make it all better Cry

Poor Yulia!

loved it!

tATuROCKSxxx · **tATuROCKSxxx**

Poor Yulia...so much pain... Cry

But yeah,so sweet. Please keep it up Smile

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ZombieRocket · **ZombieRocket**

awww. I hate that Yulia's in pain!
There better not be any sad endings dude, I will cry! Frown

belochka07 · **belochka07**

Oh no, you actually made me slightly weepy over this! But in a good way. This story is amazing and so are you. Hug

This thing that Yulia has...it sounds exactly like what my cousin is going through. He's slowly dying too. But maybe this story will help me understand what he's going through. I'll be reading!
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paintedfrog · **paintedfrog**

aww i hope there can be something to save yulia, maybe lena's love will help her live longer to get to the cure for whatever she has at least yulia wont give up, she is lucky to have lena, well unlucky to be dying but at least not dying alone. oh yeah so maybe you already said this but is yulia's and lena's fathers out of the picture?

great update
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Christina-m · **Christina-m**

Mrs. Volkova There will be more flashbacks through the story and more broken english Grin

paintedfrog Yeah no fathers in this one. As if they don't have any.

belochka07 I hope your cousin does not feel any of the pain I make Yulia go through. I invented this illness because I did not want to use a real one so I can be creative with it and because I did not want to wrongfully portray an illness that someone who reads may have or know someone with it. So I created it. Now my other story I know a lot about that topic so I don�t worry about it as much in that sense.

Everyone else THANKS for the Comments. And those who did not comment THANKS for reading Smile

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Chapter 4

Two months had passed quickly with no other problems pertaining to Yulia’s health. Yulia’s mom had spoken to Lena’s mom and by some act of god, Lena’s mom had calmed down about the whole love thing. Not that the girls dared to kiss in her presents, but she still let Lena sleep over Yulia’s house on weekends.

“Have a good break guys, don’t forget to read, and keep warm, See you in the New Year” The teacher said as the students rushed out of the classroom.

“Lena, Lena” Yulia called out as she reached the playground.

Though they where in twelfth grade, the high school was connected to the middle school therefore they had a playground. “Lena” Yulia yelled as she felt the ground shake under her. Lena was suppose to meet her by the playground after school but she was no where to be seen. Everything seemed to be moving so fast, as Yulia stumbled towards the playground. “LENA” Yulia cried. Colors swooshed by as kids blended together forming blurry blobs. Yulia felt the ground move as she stumbled into a swing and fell over holding her head.

“Yulia” Lena screamed as she ran to the spiky haired girl. “Yulia are you ok?” She asked, a tone of fright in her voice, as she lifted Yulia up off the snow.

“Lena, I’m dizzy” Yulia said. She closed her eyes and threw up all over Lena’s coat.

“Ok let’s bring you to the nurse. I hope she is still here” Lena said. She lifted Yulia up and carried her into the school. Lena was not much bigger than Yulia but somehow in her fright she managed to carry her all the way to the nurse’s office.

“Lena, stop going so fast” Yulia said watching the body’s blur past them.

“Baby I’m not going fast but we have to get there before she leaves.”

“Lena, stop going so fast” Yulia repeated. Lena looked down at the fragile girl in her arms and picked up speed. “Lena, I’m gonna be sick” Yulia gagged.

“Close your eyes, we are almost there” Lena said. Kids stared as Lena ran down the hall.

“Are we there yet?” Yulia gagged.

“We are going to the middle school nurse babe. They are still in classes so there is a better chance of her still being here” Lena said. Yulia could not stand the dizziness any more and vomited all over Lena yet again. Lena felt the hot liquid drip down into her shirt but she did not care. Finally they made it into the nurse’s room and Lena placed Yulia on a bed.

“Yulia, what happened? What are you doing in here?” The nurse asked. The nurse knew Yulia very well. Yulia had many injuries as a child from fighting and she had spent many detentions in the nurse’s office when she was a kid.

“Yulia it’s not that I don’t enjoy your company or the help but why do you get yourself in trouble like this?” Mrs. Hess, the middle school nurse asked.

“I not purpose” the spunky eighth grader said innocently.

“What did you do this time?” Mrs. Hess asked sweetly.

“I kiss me friend” Yulia said.

“Did you kiss him on the lips?” The nurse asked.

“No I kiss her on the lips” Yulia said with a smirk.

“Yulia, you can’t kiss people during school, you know that” Mrs. Hess said calmly.

“I know but her lips are a good taste and it not in school. It on playground” Yulia said innocently.

“Is she in detention too?”

“Yes she come after toilet.” Yulia said.

“She’s in the bathroom?” the nurse asked.

“Da”

“Yes?”

“Oh sorry, yes she have to pee” Yulia said bluntly. A few seconds later Lena shyly walked into the office.

“Hi I have detention with you” Lena said shyly. Lena had never been in trouble and was very uneasy about how it would go.

“Lena good girl, never have detention, she scared, but still good kisser” Yulia said as she changed the sheet of the bed. Lena’s face turned darker than her hair which made Miss. Hess laugh.

“Well Lena I’m miss Hess, why don’t you sort these passes. The ones that say ‘sent home’ go in one pile and the absent letters go in another”.

“She just got really dizzy and fell down” Lena said to Mrs. Hess.

“Have you been feeling sick?” she asked.

“No all of a sudden I saw the world moving quickly around me” Yulia said as she held her head.

“Do you have a head ache?” the nurse asked.

“Yeah” Yulia answered.

“Lena go clean up I have a shower in the bathroom, I’ll give you some scrubs to put on when you get out” Mrs. Hess said. “Yulia, do you still have your illness?” She asked quietly. Yulia looked up at Mrs. Hess as tears started forming on the brim of her eyes.

“-Can I give her Tylenol? Well Lena is getting dressed she said she’d be happy to drive her home, yes she seems to be feeling better now, would you like to talk to her? Ok hold on” Mrs. Hess handed Yulia the phone.

“Mamma, yeah I feel much better now. Lena is going to take me home…. Ok, bye” Yulia handed the phone back to Mrs. Hess and Lena walked out of the bathroom wearing bright yellow scrubs. Yulia could not help busting out with laughter as she saw her.

“Oh my eye, the sun is too bright” Yulia laughed.

“Don’t say anything” Lena said sternly starring at Yulia.

“This shit is bananas b.a.n.a.n.a.s.” Yulia sang giggling at Lena’s wardrobe. Lena smiled as she playfully whacked Yulia in the head.

“Ow headache, remember?” Yulia said.

“Sorry babe” Lena said kissing the spot where she hit Yulia. Yulia smiled and looked at Mrs. Hess with a smirk. Mrs. Hess shook her head smiling. Yulia closed her eyes and relaxed as Lena ran her fingers through Yulia’s spikes. “Almost ready to go Yul?” Lena asked.

“Yeah, can you carry me again?” Yulia answered.

It was Christmas break, and the school had three weeks off. Lena was given permission to stay with Yulia every day except Christmas Eve and Christmas day.

“Lena, have you ever had sex?” Yulia asked shyly that night in bed.
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YunaVolkova · **YunaVolkova**

aww poor yulia. love the flash back though. hmm i wounder what yulia wants to do based on the last sentance... Devil

i wounder what will happen? yulia and lena 2gether over christmas. Devil

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theone · **theone**

great update!

Mrs. Volkova · **Mrs. Volkova**

My poor Yuli! Confused

Awesome update

Oh and as always I'm loving the flashback. Grin

Can't wait to see what happens over the break! Sexy

ZombieRocket · **ZombieRocket**

Oh poor yulia! Frown

I love the flashbacks, they're so cute.
I do wonder why Yulia would ask such a question as her last Confused

Clueless.
Do inform us Grin

belochka07 · **belochka07**

I like how your really creative with stories! Making stuff up is good. More interesting.

And also...AHHH, why the cliff-hangers?! They will someday drive me insane. lol

You Rock

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paintedfrog · **paintedfrog**

aww poor yulz, but at least she is better for christmas. i think yulia would know the answer to that question cuz she's been kissing lena ince they were kids...but a good way for yulia to say what she wants to do maybe.

great update
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Christina-m · **Christina-m**

belochka07 Don't kill me Bolt

YunaVolkova Mrs. Volkova ZombieRocket Sexy

soon I promise Wink

EVERYONE ELSE THANKS 4 READING Grin

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Chapter 5

“No you?”

“Lena you are the only person I’ve ever been with, of course not” Yulia said. “I was wondering if you want someday before I get too sick, um, I mean if you are ready, we could try it. But we don’t have to until you are ready cause I’d never force you to do it if you don’t want to. I just really love you and want to share a moment like that with you before it is too late. And not just because I don’t want to die a virgin, but because I really love you. You are the word to me. Don’t think I want you for that, cause if you are never ready it will be ok with me’ Yulia rambled. Lena smiled.

“Calm down, calm down. I love you with every part of me and I’d love sharing that part of me with you but I don’t feel right doing it now.” Lena said.

“Ok so… ok” Yulia said blushing a bit.

“We could make out though” Lena said slyly. Yulia smiled and climbed on top of Lena. They kissed each other passionately for a few minutes before Lena started caressing Yulia’s legs. Yulia smiled against Lena’s lips and started sucking on her neck. Lena moaned and rolled on top of Yulia while sucking on her earlobe. Lena kissed her way down Yulia’s neck slightly sucking on Yulia’s soft skin.

“Mmm Lena” Yulia moaned as a wave of pleasure struck through her body like lightning. “Lena if we don’t stop now, I can’t promise I will be able to stop later” Yulia warned. Lena rolled off of Yulia sadly.

“Aw I was having fun” Lena whined.

“Me too” Yulia said. “But you are not ready and I won’t force you. It’s just you really turn me on and my neck is kinda my spot. So if you continue, I’ll be forced to take you right now.” Yulia said.

Lena woke up to slight moaning. She looked at the green neon numbers on the clock. It read 2:10 am. Lena closed her eyes again until she heard another moan. She felt Yulia moving next to her but Yulia did not sound like she was in pain. Lena shut her eyes thinking that Yulia was just having a dream. “Oh Lena” Yulia whispered. Lena rolled over to look at Yulia. Yulia’s eyes where shut and her face was in a peaceful smile. “Mmmm, Lena, yeah” Yulia whispered in her sleep. Lena smiled as she felt her face get warm.

“Oh boy” she said to her self figuring out what Yulia must be dreaming about.

Yulia opened her eyes surprised to see Lena hovering over her.

“Oh Fuck, Lena you almost gave me a heart attack” She said. “What are you doing up? What time is it?” Yulia asked.

“After two” Lena answered.

“Why are you up so early? You scared me” Yulia said.

“I could not sleep” Lena lied.

“Why not, bad dream?” Yulia asked caressing Lena’s cheek.

“No, you where moaning my name too loud” Lena smiled. Though it was dark in the room Lena could tell Yulia’s face was glowing. “Aw baby, I have those dreams too. It is completely normal.” Lena said. She kissed Yulia on the lips. Yulia smiled shyly as she snuggled closer into Lena’s warm body.

“So how good am I?” Yulia asked.

“What?” Lena asked in a confused tone.

“In your dreams how good am I?” Yulia asked. Lena smiled “Yulia” Lena laughed.

“Ahh” Yulia mumbled as she felt a shooting pain strike through her right foot.

“Yulia what happened?” Lena asked, startled at the sudden outburst.

“Oh God it’s my foot again.” Yulia cried. “The right one” she continued. Lena went down to Yulia’s feet. Yulia was wearing soft rainbow socks that went up to her ankle Lena started massaging Yulia’s foot over her socks.

“Ahh Lena no” Yulia screamed.

“Baby I have to do this to stop the pain” Lena said.

“No take the sock off. Take the sock off” Yulia laughed kicking her foot away and then moaning in pain.

“What? Why?” Lena asked.

“Oh please it tickles, it hurts. I don’t know to laugh or cry, just take the sock off” Yulia begged. Lena removed Yulia’s sock and rubbed the muscle until Yulia’s pain stopped.

Lena apologized while putting Yulia’s sock back on.

“Lena, hold me” Yulia whimpered.

Lena hugged Yulia tightly. “It’ll be ok. I promise.” Lena said wiping the tears from Yulia’s face. “Why does it have to hurt so badly?” Yulia cried. Lena hated seeing Yulia in pain and hated seeing her cry. If she could, Lena would take all the pain as her own so Yulia would not have to feel anything.

“I love you so much Yulia” Lena whispered as she ran her fingers through Yulia’s spikes. That simple action always seemed to calm Yulia down. She loved the feeling of Lena’s fingers playing with her hair. It was very weird how Yulia would hardly let anyone touch her, but Lena could get so close and it would calm her down.

“How is it now, are you still in pain, baby?” Lena asked still running her fingers along Yulia's scalp.

“No, it is all better now” Yulia smiled. “Lay on me” Yulia requested.

“Are you sure, I don’t want to hurt you” Lena said.

“I’m sure” Yulia said. Lena carefully placed her body on top of Yulia. Yulia ran her hands up Lena’s face and pulled it down so their lips where touching. Yulia kissed Lena deeply on the lips. She felt Lena’s tongue pushing against her lips so she slightly opened her mouth. Lena’s tongue slipped in as Yulia sucked on it causing both girls to moan. Lena pulled away and started kissing down Yulia’s jaw line stopping in the middle side of Yulia’s neck. Yulia leaned her head further back so Lena would have more access to her skin. Lena licked up and down Yulia’s smooth neck stopping a few times to lay light kisses on her neck causing the smaller girl to shiver in pleasure. Yulia felt her heart beat speed up in her chest as well as a pulsing from between her legs. Yulia moaned in Lena’s hair as Lena continued driving her wild with soft kisses.

“Lena stop, I can’t take it much longer” Yulia whined. Lena sucked lightly on Yulia’s neck which caused Yulia to moan louder. Yulia lowered her hand into her own pants “No, Lena I won’t be able to stop, if you don’t stop now” Yulia warned.

“I know” Lena said as she smiled against Yulia’s neck removing Yulia’s hand from her pants.

“No baby” Yulia cried out. “I need to” Yulia tried to protest when she felt a wave flow through her body.

“No you don’t” Lena whispered holding Yulia’s arms above her head.

“Mmhm. Yes I do” Yulia cried almost out of breath. Lena laughed into Yulia’s neck.

“No you don’t, let me do it” Lena said as she lowered her hand under the sheets.

Lena removed Yulia’s pajama pants and ran her fingers over Yulia’s underwear. She lowered her head as she lightly kissed Yulia’s thighs. Yulia felt wave after wave flow through her body with each kiss. “Ohhh Lena oh god” Yulia moaned clearly enjoying the soft touch of the girl she was madly in love with. Lena kissed between Yulia’s legs still over her underwear which was now almost soaked.

“Are you sure you’re ready?” Yulia panted.

“Oh yeah are you?” Lena said.

“Mmm hmm” Yulia moaned. Lena traced small circles over Yulia’s underwear. “Stop teasing, please” Yulia begged. Lena smiled and removed Yulia’s underwear. Lena wanted to keep playing but she was so turned on herself that she skipped teasing and stuck her hand between Yulia’s legs, just before entering Yulia, The bedroom door swung open.
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YunaVolkova · **YunaVolkova**

DAMN THAT WAS HOT!!! you are soo EVIL!! uh oh i have a feeling that it is yulia's mom. my bad vibes sence is going off.i can't wait for more.

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volkyangel · **volkyangel**

dude,you are like the meanest person on the planet!!!!!you can't stop just like that!!!!I mean clearly you did,but you really should have not.anyways....on with the update! Devil

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thatgirlkassie · **thatgirlkassie**

oh my, its gotta be Yulia's mom.....wow

great update Grin

......bad bad for stopping there though Surprised/Shocked

Mrs. Volkova · **Mrs. Volkova**

Damn you're such a tease! Rolleyes

Update soon, please! *puppy dog eyes*

*runs to take a cold shower*
Grin

ZombieRocket · **ZombieRocket**

UGH NO!
why would you do this to us?!
I guess I'll have to go take a cold shower now. THANKS A LOT.
The next one better be good Squint

btw i loved it